GONNA HV 2 SAY BYE BYE to 3 YEARS GEH HIM

many thngs dat nt kira is gud had happen in dis few day
jz cz of little wrng...
little angryness
little dissapoinment dat he gave me....
i had lose my 3 years kor
haizzz...
y kant i found a kor dat rili gud rili nice dat will honest 2 me...???
i have less fren n less communication wth ppl
just like lots of ppl gt lots of their fren 2 communicte to
n my life is still surrounded wth silence n lonelyness..
evrytme whn i saw my frn have a vry vry nice n gud relation wth their kor ahh...frn ah....o hu else i will vry 'hap chou'..

last time i tght afta i gt dis kor i can have more frn i will have a kor dat will k me will treat me gud will sek me jz like his own mui...
bt he didnt...
i knw he`s gud 2 me oso but i still dun tink dat he gt da 'tiao jian' dat i wan
n now.... sumthng dat is unhappy had happen i jz angry ignore him n i will have 2 say bye bye 2 him..
2day hes da 1 hu say bye bye 3 year geh mui 2me 1st hes nt my kor anymore
i tink dis tme my life will mre silence dy
its so hard 2 find a frn dat rili gud rili nice...rili honest...rili kao dak ju....
its so hard 2 fnd lots of fren dat cn alwys bsid me always pui me always hlp dou me
its so hard 2 being a human being...
evry day hvng meaningless life lidat i wish i could leave dis world by NOW

THE LAST DAY

2day ws my last day here n it was sunday many ppls family r cumng 2 vsit dem..pei xuan`s famly had bought 3 set of smll pizza n sum soda drnk.tong tong`s fmily had bought many food too n a b`day cake 2 clbrte tong tong`s bday dat suppose 2 b on tuesday.pei xuan n tong tong`s famly r vry ne thy alys brng a smling fce n pei xuan little sis n bro`s skin vry vry vry whte.her little bro look exactly like her so............cute neh haha.....jenny`s bf is cuming 2 llook at her too..
whle jenny`s bf cuming in xiao yu followd her n sdnlly she call me 2 follow...n whn i run 2 her she pointed whr`s bear n say UR BEAR AT THR haha i wnted 2 grtful her cz she let me c him b4 i left there

b4 its da time my mum dem rch here...xia en,xiao yu,pei xuan,shun shun,AH B,jenny,tong tong,mei mei n monoct hd tke sum pic wth me..on the time we tking picca i ws memorising bek the happy memory dat thye gave me....their 38 voice,38 pattern....they r the most 38 group i ever meet..
xpecially monoct.althought i jz knw her 4 jz few day bt i cn feel the 38 frm her.the most i remembr frm her is wt she always do 2 ppl dat is "[boo sama dia....BOO....[ BOO] BOO sama dia.....[BOO BOO]...Gud sama sendiri....[GUD]"...haha dis always made me hepi bek whn i gt myslf vry dissapointd...

afta my mum rgh here im gonna hv 2 pck my thng,lapor diri at JLB,retrn their full lorng...on dt time i doin my thng xiao yu dem jz keep tlking 2 the wira there thy dun evn cum n hlp me
dat time i tght i will gonna hv 2 do evry ting alone...
on the time im goin 2 tke my thng out all of dem cum in n thy hlp me

xia en took my plastic of bottle
xiao yu too my luggage
shun shun took my KHIDMAT NEGARA dat big rubbish dump plstc bag 4 sure insde cntain my shoe n food la nt rubbish
pei xuan took my pail
N
ah b took my anthr bag
thy hlp me tke it frm DOM 2 JLB DEN FRM JLB 2 the gate...thy made me so gan dong
o tght i wont cry whn i lft there cz b4 i went in i ws vry hate there bt b4 i lft all of them hugged me i kant cntrl my tears.it flow out automatically

act i ws hvng a heavy heart 2 leave thr cz i hv strtd 2 b the life there i gt my frnds there i nvr b alone there...I LOVE NS Sooooo....much bt den my weak skin dun allow me 2 always gt undr the strng sun.no wmy eye gt serious sunburn n it becum sunburn panda eye YUCK...!!!! i llook like thse ppl dat dsnt hve enuf slp n i hv chtd my NS frn dat i hve rgstd 4 stdy so gonna leave thr.IM SO SORRY BOUT DAT ...nt i dwn go undr the sun wth dem nt i rilli wan leave dem bt my skin nt strng enuf n i gt a weak health i vry easy gt sick once i alwys gt undr the sun..i hope thy will undrstnd n wont gt angry

i lft there by 4.15 pm b4 i go bek julio n a guy bye bye 2 me oso ngek ngek...on the way i goin bek once agn i jz keep tinkng the days we all 2gthr.if i gt a strng health n a gud skin 4 sure i will sty there 3mth.i knt c dem once i lft.n also jonathn`s cute botak XD...
say till him i din c him since he tke hlidy 4 whole week.afta i bek 4 afew minute shun shun msg me n say '[UR JONATHN R BACK]' i gedebichaboom ki....whn i wntd 2 look at him he`s nt arnd....once i go bek he rch thr...as ppl say TAKDE JODOH @@

oh ya....b4 i lft pei xuan gave me a letter datwrte by her ystday nita.....so gan dong afta i read it
THX YA HAO REN ^^

10th APRIL

i have sicked 4 a long time till i`m nt able 2 upload my blogg..
on da....

10th of april 7.53 am

2day gt lot of shrt hav 2 wsh by myslf cz 2day is sat o doni 4 us....ADUII...
bout 7.30 am lidat we r odered go 2 dwn mkn.the breakfst is nsi lemk once i eat it.. EUUUU.....!!wat a dsgustng food...
b4 dat...once i went into the dwn mkn my eye will automatically fnd whrs DIL N BEAR .jst myb cz DIL can say is the oly male frn dat tlked 2 me here so i will fnd him bt BEAR....i jz duno y i ws so intrstd wth him. heh heh
we end up our brkfst wth din eat anyting n once we bek 2 dom shun shun n xiao yu ws slpt,ah qi pulak rding novl amy ws ironing da class shrt dat needed 2 b wear ltr 4 the ceramh sumthng bout $ n now was my turn 2 rst awile too ngek ngek....

whn its almst time 4 crmh our jurulth put the lady gaga`s bad romance...i was too tird i kant even hear it till whn AH B wakes me up oly i hear the song.... our dom`s frn sing non stop haha it mad eme feel dats its my nce day 2day till i oso go n chnge my tag wth zatul muakekekeke...on the time we hvng crmh i kant stop myslf frm fndng whrs BEAR seat..but i failed i nt dare 2 look furthr..i jst giv up fnding him i was slpt cz i rilli vry vry tird afta i ws awke xiao yu told me dat she can c BEAR frm her seats direction

i told myslf dat 2day was my last say riadah here i mst tlk 2 bearn mke frn wth hm bt den....HAIX....bear go n talk 2 shun shun..
ACT once shun shun appearnce she mke me lost me keyakinan
cz she rilli vry pretty many guys love 2 look at her..whn i saw bear strt tlkd 2 her i ws so dwn n sy 2 myslf dat "FINE DY LA....IM NT BEARS CUP OF TEA I DUN HV THE LVL EVN 2 B HIS FRN" afta awile DIL cum n tlk sum wth m...i was so hepi dat my last day riadah i stillg t chnce talk wth DIL
wt i cn say bout DIL is he is the nicest malay guy dat i hd ever meet althght we jz tlke twice bt he`s the 1st malay guy dat tlkd 2 me

BEKKK....

pheww...its alrdy been alng tme snce i bek here frm NS
frm the time i knew i hv 2 go 2 NS dy i hv alrdy stopped my blog..dat time i gt no time no mood 2 tink wats im gonna 2 wrte in my blog....
i have 2 arrnge bek my mood 4 goin 2 NS bt den i have came bek here afta 2 week i went 2 NS ....i said 2 myslf dat i wnt bloggng anymre...bt den whn i ws in NS i kant do it...insid there kant bloggng bt still gt diari 2 wrte ^^ i have wrte sum diaries a few day whn i was there
afta i have fnsh resting...IM NOW BEK 2 MY BLOG N I WILL STRT BLOGGING BEK
i knw my blog dosent have anyting dats interstd dosent nice n nt attrcted...
BT...
the reason dat i strt blogging is jz 4 release wats insid my mind...wats hppn 2 me...n oso realese my mood here i wnt k eithr my blog is nce o nt...i will jz k wat i wrte here n now im bek 2 my blog

my NS frn gave me lot of nce memory till i kant blog myslf 2 wrte it down wats hppn evrydy
bt my NS blog is jz gt few of it cz da tme thr wasnt enuf 4 me

on 9th of APRIL 2010 11.12pm

[i wrte dis by usng my own torchlight afta our doms light has been turn off cz its da time 2 slp]

anther 2 more day i`m gonna leave here
i have 2 leave here....leave all my frn here...memry here...n ect ect
N also him.....[BEAR] i will miss dem so so mch

HMMM......2nte i flt emo i flt dat i was so useless.
i knt gt mre frn here xcpt my dom`s frn n my clss group frn.all my dom`s frn like xiao yu,shun shun,pei xuan xie en also gt their lot of new frn here.bt me.....im nt barve 2mke any frn if thy din come talk 2 me 1st..cz i still duno their real charcter n i afrsid if i hd say wrng any dat will mde dem ngry n hate me
dis few day mt eye gt da sunburn n it bcum mre pain day by day...i kant tahan the pain anymre..once i gt undr the sun,my eye wil damn pain..at last i gt mc 4 2day...i tin da dctr kant gt my meaning whn i say under my eye was pain n he gave me a small bttle of eye drop =-='''' duh on dat day shun shun oso gt da mc
ystday was xiao yu n xia en mc n we jking dat huh 2day they two gt mc 2mr is our turn 2 tke da mc...who know we jz talk n we rili gt da mc haha

on 5.30pm dats our riadah time...mw n shun hsun snipped out frm our dom 2 join xiao yu dem riadah cz we damn bored sty insid da dom[act the reason is find 'PPL' dat we wanna c muahahahha...]
dat time i just wanna c "BEAR" i duno y i just feel like i like 2 look at him n i rili kant made him out of my mind..since i hve 2 leave here soon i tght 2day wanna ctch a chnce n try 2 mke frn 2 him...bt den..i din do it..I DUN HAVE THE THE CHANCE N I NT DARE 2 DO IT!!!!i was jz putus asa n cntinue keep loking at him like usual
HIAZZ...
i was so.....useless
bt den luckily at least still gt DIL jog wth me awile..
DIL is frm company DELTA wira...he same class n same group wth me ngek ngek
HE was such a nce person n if i gt chnce b his frn i will b vry vry hepi

i realise dat [SINCE I CAME HERE I STARTED GT INTERESTD WTH MALAYS GUY]

im bek^^

theres been long time i din write my blog n i oso duno wt im gonna sayng here...
by the way....at last i have bek t.i 4 few day holiday frm my PLKN...dat made me suffer alot there wth the undelicious n disgusting food...wth under the hot hot sun evryday n i have 2 wsh my shrt by MYSELF ....
i was unhepi n have such a damn bad mood whn i gt the PLKN letter...n i jz leave 4 there wthout many ppl knwng it....

i went there on28th of mac
i sw jonathan n my a daughter of my mum`s frnn there bt both of them i oso duno each othr
i was vry scrd on the way i went there...
i scrd dat i kant get frn there scrd dat duno evrythng there n ect ect
bt THX GOD
once i went into the dom...theres few chinese gal there n thy being vry friendly n funny...
on the 1st day i was there i alrdy cn gt my frnd
thy tch me wt have 2 do...thy hlp me n i was vry njyng wth them
i 4gt some of their name cz thy`re nt same dom wth me...
i jz remember those who same dom wth me....(paiseh paiseh ppl old dy is lidat 1)
i was nt afrd of any1 there cz of xiao yu`s help heh heh...
on the 1st time i went into my dom...i saw 7 of the chinese gal 3 of them r frm othr dom...
once i went in...thy greet me n ask ask ask alot of funny ques n dat time xiao yu{thats 1 of the frn dat same dom wth me) was ironing shrt she say dun bother dem... thy all abnormal 1 in among so many ppl im the most normal 1... haha
afta dat thy told me their name 1 by 1 bt till now i still kant remember it XD
n pei yen she the most gud ppl we alll call her hao ren she vry nice n her skin damn white...the way she laugh was very funi is huh huh huh 1

AT LAST...

dis few day raining heavily....n i was njying da cooling air by da rain ^^
n on last two nite after yumcha wth my kmuii we went longkai wth her kai kai kor on da car we opnd the window...
wth cool wind cool air n da song we hear mede me so relax
n dis had gave me a relaxing mind emm....huh
by the time of it i had tink alot...
n i oso had made alot of decision...
i will 4gt eveythng bout HIM...
n strt my new life wthout thnkng of HIM....
haha ^^
i dun wan b a single lover...dats a stpd thing i ever had...im nt suppose 2 wait sum1 dat smlr den me dat dun have feel wth me
i say 2 myself dat DUN B SO IDIOT
so....at last i had rub him off n jus made his s my frn ^^
n diss....had made my mood less b moody dy hehe
N NOW....i will jz concntrate 2 sum1 dat nice dat gud 2 me n i wont tink othr ppl dy

ACT DO I HV FRN??

my i knw whr all my frn had gone????o i nvr have frn o m i so being hated by ppl?
dis few day i was soo moody i try 2 nt fidn any1...bt den???my ph nvr rang nvr have sum msg frm any 1..
im so dissapointed i knw im a useless ppl...i kant gv ppl any benefit...bt is dat my life????my mum born me out is 4 gvng my frn o ppl BENEFIT....???
oh plsss im nt da benefitter dat i have 2 gv benefit 2 those ppl..
my mum born me out is 4er i havng a life...hvng my own frn....hvng my social n bla bla bla..
bt den???ppl jz take me s their banafitter...whn i dun have wt thy nid wt thy wn o whn i kant gv any benefit 2 ppl....n whn i din fnd dem,,,,
thy will nt evr find me...xcpt 1 of my same age frn...
dis few day i was superb damn moody...is thr any1 knw it????is thr any1 here 2 comfort me???
no!!!
no1 evr knw n no 1 evr cum n do it...
wt thy knw???thy jz knw dat i kant gve dem any benefit anymre n thy wont fnd me n jz let me die...wth moody...oh if lidat im gonna gttng crzy

now me n my kor relationship n da way we communicate bcum wrst day by day...all JZ bcz of my damn shit moody mood if nt im chttng wth him dy
bt my moody made me nt dare 2 chat wth him cz i afrd i will scld him xcdntly

BT
THX GOD DAT 2 DAY I HVE CHAT WTH MY LONG ITME DIN CONTACT DY DE GUAI ZAI DATS ALAN N ALSO MY LUII JUN
2day whn i fnd DEM 2 chat thy was jkng wth me n the way n the mood thy chattng wth me gttng alot better den last time whn i find dem chat
WHN I SAW THEIR MOOD SO GUD XPECIALLY MY ZAII...
FRM DA TIME I STOP CNTCT WTH DEM N I CNTINUE FND HER 4ER SUMTIME...2DAY DA 1ST TIME I C HER MOOD SO GUD...
whn i c her mood is gttng bttr den last time nt s moody s stress like last time i was so heppi...
N OSO WAWA DATS MYGUD FRN FRM WHN I WAS STILL VRY SMALL TILL NW...HAHA
SHE OSO CHAT N JKE N OSO HEAR MY XIN SHI...SHE WAS ALSO DA TYPE OF PLYFL PPL LA

MY MOOD WILL GT BTTR BY 2 DAY ALL WANA THX MY ZAII,LUI N my GUD FRN WAWA OH...
THX U GUYS...BT DEN I HOPE DIS SITUATION CAN B KEEP ON TILL 4EVR
K LA OFF BY HERE....IT1S VRY LTE DY
NITEX ALL

IF I GT THE CHANCE,I WILL WAIT

a few day din on9 din write blog bt i still duno dat im gonna hv 2 say wt here
my mind was blank n im blurred
we have din msg 4er a few day n in dis few day i tryng 2 4gt bout him
cz da 1 he love is oly his gf he wont b`longs 2 me theres no use n its jux wsting my time wtng him
bt den iknat do it i jux kant 4gt him jux kant do it
I KANT DO IT....!!!
bt den
no matter i`hve gt da chnce o nt...
no matter i hve 2 wait how long
no matter how far i hav 2 go
if i gt da chnce...i will still wait till i gt the chance

HEPI HEEPI^^

YSTDAY he had slpt so din even reply me...
n 2day i jz like usually wait 4er his msg no matter wt i doin....
n den whn i went out 2 giant wit my dii dats gretchen kaka sdnly i tke my ph n c he say sory 2 me cz ystday he slpt dy so din reply me..keke
dat time my moody mood man man de gave giant dat 2 digi salesperson cured whn thy startd plyng n jking wth us whle dii went 2 buy headset frm dem+ i gt charlies msg my mood terus bcum super gud leh
haha
altgh hes msg is nt wt msg n many msg like [u at my heart so important u noe] i knw dis word is jus lying n its impossible im important 4 him whs important 2 him is jz his gf n whn i dun trustd him he jz say me so stuborn haha

altgh i knw wt he say like miss me n cn c me evrydy la im importnt 4 him oso n bla bla bla so on is nt da truth...n i wont trust it la bt den im so hepi whn i saw it ^^

1st i wana thx my dii GRETCHEN cz brng me out if not i oso wont gt chnce tlk 2 da two salesperson kaka
2nd i wana thx giant`s digi da 2 superrbb nice salesperson 4 cherrng my mood up hehe
thx thx
LET ME INTRO DEM LA....BT I TAK TAU WTS THEIR NAME BOR NVMNVM I WILL GT THEIR NAME NXT TIME I GO THR HAHA
THY R DA GIANT`S DIGI STALL ON DA 1ST FLOOR N ON DA RGHT HAND SIDE FRM DA DOOR FRM MCD N ON DA LFT HND SIDE WHN U IN FRM DA PARKING ENTRNCE THE
GT TIME GO BONG CHAN DEM BA XD
N N LASTLYY
THX 2 DII N U TWO SALESPERSON CHEER MY MOOD BEK MUUUAHHHXXX =X

i NID MEDIC AHHH

jz nw blgng cz i dunno type his name so i go n msg him n ask him他
aftr he reply me da msg dt he reply also jz [enen] i tght 2day he will msg wth me jz like dat day bt he din
whn i say dt dwn dstrb him dy ask him 2 go n do hid thng he oso jz en
dat time my heart was vry.... vry pain
i say dy dat day whn he msg me is jz wana ply me bt iu was so stpd thnk alot
i oso knw dat im so stpd go n like sum1 dat will nvr like me nvr gt interestd wth me
bt i jz kant cntrl myself
evnthou i knw he wont like me bt i still wana so like him
n my feel deepeer day by day
bt wt cn i do????
i kant gt da ans 4 it
whn i thnk bek hw cum i will fall in love wth him
myb cz of his nce chrctr
everytme whn i tink dat he dun love me i wont gt da chnce my eye will b wet
my feel too deep wth hm dy...
its too late for me 2 keep it bek

my heart ws so pain
is thr any medic 2 cure it
HU CAN HLP ME

好不明白

为什么我想要参的。。。好想把他们做我的好朋友的
总是都不参我不理我而且当我没存在
难道我就根本跟人类没人缘？？？
还是我根本没有他们所参的条件？？？没他们那么有钱没他们那么美身材也跟他们没得来所以他们看不起我？？
还是我的人根本就是令人讨人厌？？
我想参的人好多好多 但是我和他们不熟没机会去靠近他们一些就丢下了我 也许他们是有了他们要的朋友或他们自己的好朋友
之前
当星儿带常我出时 她就是最好的那个 我和我家人吵架时我告诉她她会安慰我那时要不是有他在我看我现在已经没机会在这里写blog了
当我第一次看到他时我就好想做她其中一个好友
当她带我出时我好高兴我以为我有机会当她其中一个朋友
结果不是。。。我根本没那个机会是
我根本不会有那个机会
对我来说能找到自己的好朋友是比仍和东西最重要的
我真的好想有些稳定的朋友

无论在友情或爱情我都是失败的
当我朋友伤心有心事时虽然我很明白很了解他们的心情但是我根本没本事安慰也没有本事帮他们
在爱情上我好没用竟然会爱上一个有女朋友的也没可能会喜欢上我的一个男生
昨天有个朋友跟我开玩笑他叫我去抢我又想过但是我自己是什么koli...我自己知道
我根本不可能会赢...我根本不会得到琦霖的心我不可能是他喜欢哪种的女生
我永远都没有得到他爱的那种命

我好不明白自己的命为什么都是充满失败充满伤心的记忆
也许是我没用没胆子是个失败者吧

loSE MY PATIENT

2DAY im so missed him...
i kant stand anymore...i was too miss him till my hand was undercntrl n msg him
wat an idiot
i knw he gt gf dy n im nt suppose 2 msg him bt den find the 1 we like it`s nt a mistake...
we gt the hak 2 love n find sum1 eventhou thy dosent blng`s o will nvr blng`s 2 us...
dis is my 1st time i will automatically find sum1 dat i like n dosent blong 2 me

whn i tink bek y i wan go n sms him....wat a shame

kenny told me dat tell him my feeling b4 i feel regret nxt time..bt i jz knt do it...its jz coz he`s ppl`s bf..bt den if hes single i oso nt dare 2 do dat
cz im nt a brave ppl

MISSED MISSED MISSED HIM

ystdy charlie had msg me n we had msg 4 awile^^
his 1st msg was i love u....me is kenny
i rememberd his num gt 9010 i agak is charlie plyng n kenny will nvr say ME is kenny
so i replied him dat charlie maii wu liao la...
afta dat we had msg 4awile
i was so suprise dat he wil msg wth me 4awile
i said 2 myslf dat the day dat i hope n 1 of wt i wish has COME TRUE
i was so....hepi bt whn i tink bek he gt gf i say 2 myself...fine dy...hes ppl bf its nt my turn 2 have it
even we jz msg 4awile i alrdy veri hepi n vry satisfied DY

n 2day mrning while i attndng line dance clsSwth my cousin...attend my ART CLAS I TGHT dat 2dAY he will fnd me at da same time s ystday
bt....
he din
n dis mke me more miss him n dis time is super miss him
altgh wt we chat ystday was ntg n jz normal chat bt i wont 4gt bout ystday ^^
i siau dy go n like sum1 dat smlr den me 2 yr n iknw dat it ws imposible dat he will gt fling wth me i still like cntinuously n dt feel deepeer day by day

I KNW I USELESS

i knw dat im such a type of failed human s ppl calld 'sat pai' in cntnese.....
no matter wt i do i oso wont b able 2 do it da best
no matter in ren yuan
frnship...
s my mum`s daughter
or s ppl`s jie

my dii was cryNG dis two day n wt i hlp was NTG even thou i knw her feeling...i understand her feeling~
BT
i duno hw 2 cmfrt her....
duno suppose say wt 2 cmfrt her
duno supose 2 do wt so dat she will feel bttr...
dats me.. wt oso duno a FAILED human being
bt luckily still gt kenny n lisa cmfrts her

now wt i everyday afrd is i gona have a small operation on my beksite n bout my opening skul soon...
i`m nt dare 2 go n c dctr n have da operation...i kant face it EVEN it just a SMALL operation...
N
skul opening...wt shud iscrd.. it jz a skul dt we gona go thr 4 stdy dats ntg hv 2 afrd wth~
bt wt i tinking iafrd whn i went thr i gt prblm wth having new frn there HVNG COMUNICATION WTH PPL`S THR
even at t.i dis small place i oso having prblm 2 have new frn...
none of dem will have me s their frn
i wonder Y???
till 2day i kant gt da ans 4 myself myb bcz of my bad attitude o wtever i duno
sumtime i jz tinking y sum of da ppl gt alot of time till their schedule full wth their frn`s date...those ppl was so lucky i hope i can have a same situation oso

wt i wana is jz havng lot of frn n just b cum a gud designer in da future
bt...
now im afraid even whn i had 2 walk inta da skul..i tink wt i wish 2 just let it b a dream b jz let it pass away..
wt i dreaming is nvr happen n da ppl dt i like will nvr have any feling wth me...

i admit dat
im USELESS im ah SAT BAI JIE

bro`s b`dy 2day

2day was my bro 11th yrs old b`day..

we`re hvng steambOat by our own at house...
SUM NORMAL SEAFOOD APPEAR... LET ME SHOW U

MY BLOVD XD

MEAT MEAT

ASSORTD SEAFOOD MEAT XD
DUNO WT FSHES + CRAB +SLICES OF FISHES ==!!!

LIKE LAP SAP TANG

PRWN

PRWN PRWN..

SO MANY OF DEM I JZ EAT 1 NIA...

TABLE OF DA SETEAMBOAT......

MY BRO`S B`DAY CKE..

DURIAN DURIAN BY SCRT RECIPE

N HERES DA VISEO OF MY BRO N WHILE PREPARING 4 DA STEAMBOAT

all da children here..look like rumah ank yatim here ==

+ my jiu mu 2day doin tatoo [AT HOME] duno y she dwn so it at shop wan da sifu cum whn we goin c she says 2 my jiu jiu [ah di ah...so many ppl at here c..i very scare geh]

if she reli dwn gv ppl c jau go da shop do la sana no ppl will watch maii SHOW SHOW AT HERE LA...SHE THHT LIKE DAT SHHE VRY BANGA..

1DAY I DO MORE GENG GEH CUM BEK FRM KL..PUIK!!

PLS DUN BLAME ME SCLDNG PPL LIKE DT

PAISEH

EVRY MRNING

EVERY MORNING whn im goin 2 opn my eye i was always tght dat [HEY AT LAST YSTDAY I cN B A FRN of HIM] bt once i had opned my eye oly i knw dat was oly wt i think n dat ws only a dream dat wt i ws always day dreaming at..

haix....

KOR I HATE U!!!!

WHN U R LONELY....SINGLE...
U JAU KNOW CUM N FIND ME..DAY U VERY SEK ME DIS AH MUI LA...PALING SEK GEH IS ME DIS AH MUI OSO LA....

LST TIME WHN BEK FRM SNGPRE 3 DAYS U EVRYDAY OSO CUM FND N BRNG ME OUT
WHN CNY JAU SAY WN FIND ME GOU OUT...
MANA TAU DIN FND ME N WHN I KNW U AT MCD N ANI NGAM I OSO AT THR I TGHT WN GO N FIND U DIS KOR..JIE GUO LEH???U MACAM NOT VERY WAN TALK 2 ME...WHN C DOU UR FEN JAU TERUS LARI GO FIND HIM..SIAM AD OSO DIN TELL ME LANGSUNG 4GT JOR ME...ON DA LST DAY U AT T.I LO N ALRDY NO FRN GV U FIND LO OLY U TAU CUM FIND ME...\WAT U MEAN???

MUII???

DA WORD MUII DAT U SAY IT OUT FRM UR MOUTH IS OLY A ZHAM XI GEH MUII....IS JUST 4 REPLACING UR BORING N FREE DOU TINK MM DOU CAN DO WAT GEH SCHEDULE!!!!

WHN I WS BEING BULLYNG BY UR [FRN]
I NID N I WAN UR HELP..
WAT U SAY 2 ME???
[U IS MY MUI . N HE IS MY FREN U WAN I DO WAT?]
DIS WORD U OSO CAN SAY IT OUT MEANS UR FRN IS MRE IMPORTANT N U SUO CALL GEH AH MUII U CAN LOST HER N SHE`S NT IMPORATNT 4U MA..
WHN I WAS BEING BULLY BY UR FRN U OSO DANG NTG

N NOW!!!!
U GT U SUKA GEH PPL...
U JAU DUNO FIND ME..HER PH BO CREDIT U CALL ME HELP U TOPUP 4 HER!!!! WHN I TELL U DAT MY PH NO CRDT WAT U SAY??!!!!U JUST O...SHE KENAL U HOW LONG???IM UR MUII 4 HOW LONG AD HAR!!!!HER PH BO CRDT NIA U OSO TAU FND PPL HLP U TOPUP 4 HER!!!!NVM GEH...I WILL HLP 2 4 DA 1ST TIME I WILL NEVER DO IT 4 DA 2ND TIME
IM NOT DAT TYPE OF DAN CHUN PPL ANI BODOH GV U LEI YONG
JZ NOW WHN I MC U U GENG YIN ASK ME APA HAL
WA...LAST TIME WHN U R ALONE U JAU VRY GUD GEH REPLY ME LA
NOW???
U ASK ME APASAI..
I REPLY U WTH THE WORD I SCLD U U OSO DIN REPLY
PLS LA SHE`S UR GUD BROO GEH GF DUN ANI SILLY SO N TREAT HER ANI GUD LA,,,

I RELLY DISAPOINTED...
b4 dis i tink dat u use nvm..myb bo next time
BT NOW!!! I ALRDY C THRU U DIS PPL....IM NT UR MUII..!!!!
DUN CALL ME MUII AD...I WILL NT CONTCT U!!!WONT FND U!!!WONT TRUST U!!!N WONT FAN U AD!!!
MY RELLY GEH AH KOR WONT TAKE ME S A THING 2 REPLACE HIS FREE N DAMN SUPER KOSONG GEH SCHDULE
IM NT TOYS 4 DAT!!!
U GO FIND UR BELOVED GAL N UR BEST FREN BA
SORRY 4 WT HAVE WRITTEN BT WT I SAY IS JUST DA TRUTH N WAT I HAVE SAID HERE I WILL PROVE N DO IT
88 NG POH SOON

I WISH....

I WISH I CN C U AGN

I WISH DAT IM ALRDY UR FRNN

I WISH I CN NEARER 2 U

I WISH IM CNTCTNG WTH U EVERYDAY

I WISH IM SMSNG WTH U NOW

I WISH IM OUTNG WTH U NOW

I WISH 2WASH ALL THE REGRET

I WISH 2 WASH I ALL AWY THE PAIN

I WISH 2 WASH ALL THE SORROW..

BT I`M FAILED 2 DO IT..

CZ I MISS U BADLY!!!!!!

I WISH DAT I`M URS

[I WISH DAT THE 1 U LOVE IS ME]

[[I [LOVE U]..CAN U FEEL IT..!!!]]

MY ANTHR DAY....

2day was da anthr day...

2day getting worst...

i kant stop tnkng bout HIM

NO MATER IM EATING....

[MY NASI PAPRIK S MY SUPPER]

FAT SEI DY ><

WHN IM MSN

EVEN MSN WTH MY DII OSO

IM WAS WRITING MY BLOG

BLOG DT I WILL DO almst evryday

WHN I WAS RDING MY UNDNG TILL LOKE LIKE A DEAD PPL

RDING MY UNDNG..PREPRE 4 2MR UNDANG PRCTCE

WHN IM GOIN 2 BATH

my home bathroom door

No matter wt im doin i oso will thinking of bout himm

thinking dat hope i cn meet hin agn someday...

thinking bekk wth him geh memory wile we`r on da cruise

alott..

N CZ OF THINKING HIM

I WAS LOST....

I DUNO ACT HU M I NOW...

MMMMMMMISSS DA CRUISE DAY

HAIX...WHN ON DA CRUISE START JOINING DEM...I FEEL CMFRTBLE....
n now afta bek frm cruise all i miss is da day...da memory n HIM....]
i duno wt happen till i cn gt da feel..hes smaler den me 2 years i knw was nt suppose 2 have those feel

BT.......

da feel cum automatically its not i wan it
N now i everyday was very san fu U KNOW WT I MEAN????

EVERYDAY SUFFERING WTH

LIKING SUM1 DAT SMALER DEN ME 2 YEAR.....

LIKING SUM1 DAT IMPOSSIBLE WTH ME...

LIKING SUM1 DAT GT GF DY



I KANT SCREAM IT OUT

I KANT SAY IT OUT

I KANT DO ANYTHING DAT I WISH 2 DO

I KANT RELEASE IT OUT

I KANT GO DA CHNCE 2 EVEN 2 BE A FRN OF HIM


im getting worst day by day i duno y i will start liking SUM1 DAT SMALER DEN ME....

da nicest memory i ever haD

im bek frm da penang cruisee wth my dii my family n sum of my relatives...XD



bt ystday cn kira s me my mum n my bro`s bd luck day oso...we r taking room 4 3 human

whn we had sign in in da cruise n we have gt da room key n our room was at da deck 10...mana tau our room hvng prblm n kant open it...wht da bullshit..we gonna wait da wrkers cum n we was starvng dt tme

da workers thr take a vry long long time 2 fix it i think gt almst 2 hour+ i duno hw long la..i 4gt dy

luckily we here total 6 ppl r goin whn we nid restng we just rest at my cousin room thr PHEWWW...if nt we gotta stnd infrnt of da room for 2hour+ IDIOT WORKER

whle we wting da wrkrs 2 fix it up we went 4 our dinnernice...think bek da on deck 8...their dessert was vry taste my saliva oso cuming out dy leh haha im super njoying my dinner on a nce n comfortable surrounding...it was my 1st time ^^

afta fnsh hving dinner we went wlk around da cruise deck by deck wth all 6 of us since my mums performance is nt on da time yet...4 SURE da thing i like was we can have a look at the sea on deck 11 n 12..i was njoying there...da wind was big n cold n it makes me relaxing my mind there



haha tak sangka we go thr will meet up wth yong tze leh....we r having singk k there huhu...although i din sing bt i quite n joy it..n oso njoy plyng in da cruise wth kim li n arron..[.i duno da aaron is his cousin o his frn] mayb hes kim li`s realtives im nt clear bout it....kim li was a hairstylist`s son dat was kent tan...now my hair was being cut by him...he can cut my grass hair look like more like a human hair since my hair was spoil...da way he cut n da hair style da cut by him was nice...even whn i was at kl n i washed my hair in a saloon da shampoo gal oso praised da shape he cut was very nice...usually u all sure din ko dak la cz i din manage my hair ma dats y my hair look vry dry hehe



i didnt tought dat his mum will co me to made him join us whn we r goin hvng fun

we hving alot of fun nerhx...XD whn rch 5a.m n we gona go 2 bed 4er an hour...we realised dat our room kant b opned by our key cz my cousin had locked it i think..dem we went 2 kim li`s room n asked dem either their room cn opned o nt their room was ok dat means sum1 had locked our room frm insid we had no choices dat we r slpng inkimli`s room...hes slpng wth aaron n i slp wth xam on da bed on da2nd tingkat kim li n aaron can say was da 1st strabger guy dat so gud n was da 1st stranger dat i had tlked 2 by automatically

we gona awake by 6 sumthing cz it was da kim li`s order..i 4gt dy y he wana awake by 6 sumthing...he atill co us 2 wake him up whn da time rch 6 a.m...he slp like a pig lo xam kena call him many time oly he awake afta dat we bek 2 our own room i n slp agn since our room door had opened by my cousin n she alrdy awake..haha

i tght we`r frn afta the day bt whn we chckng out frm da cruise n prepare 2 leaving it n whn kim li`s n aaron saw us thy just do duno us...mayb dis is co s whn plying we`r frnd n will b friendly..but whn we had stop plyng we`r ppl dat duno each other i by the way....thy had gave me a nice memory n im so njoy n hepi whn im wth dem

paiseh neh i was too njoy there till duno how 2 say wt we`r plyng there

hope dat still gt anthr chnce 2 njying sum trip wth dem
paiseh oso ya my blog dun have any pic bout it

25TH OF feb 2010-WED THE DAY I BEK 2 T.I GONA LEAVE [DEM]

here i cum 4 my 2days blogg...hehe

guess whr m i nw??i was at my hometown dats was teluk intan..haha i on9ying at mcd wth my dii [gretchen] haha

shes was da 1st ppl hu co me whn i rch t.i 2day

go out wth her so hepi neh.....bt my fce had pop out a damn big pimples lst few day it make me paiseh nia whn i go out ISHH... HATE DA PIMPLES!!
we go yumcha at GG town bt their internt havng prblm we kant on9 thr we hv 2 alk frm GG town 2 mcd OMG i was enjoying wlking frm georgetown 2 mcd...NICE XIAA ^^ whn i plning 2 sit at thr 4 sumre long time my xiao jiu call me 2 hlp him da bao...DATS 4 SURE I HAVE 2 GO BEK EARLY cz have 2 pass da food 2 him so i gonna hv 2 cntinue writng my blog at home~really GG..bt nvm 2mr nite gt anthr round dats wth mei kei dem heheh...long time din c dem le

bt cum bek t.i was nt wt i willing2 DO it if not cos i have 2 take my car lesen n finish my drwing 4 my skul registration i oso wont go bek so early
da anthr sad thing is i have 2 leave my aunt dim sum shop..
her shop is goin 2 close n 18th of mac r the lst dayof da shop.i gona miss insid da ahma my aunt gu dung..da sifu...always plying n other worker haix..i gonna miss dem alot n also da shop aiyoyo

part 2 of 2day..haha

2nite i ws damn njoying my movie....da mvie ws vry funi n i have put down 2day mrning da angryness haha...





ohya..jz nt da blog i was 4gten 2 tell dat still gt dorin jie jie n her bf...mb cn kira is her husbnd or wt i duno...haha in so many ppl she was da cutest among dem every time i ws at kl i vry hpe dat cn c dou her cz she reli vry cute leh specially whn shes smile keke..


afta da mvie we wnt 2 yum cha at mamak stall we here gt arnd 10 ppl neh~ n all jie jie n kor kor here all i cn say is da nicest ppl dat i ever meet i ws vry cmfrtble everytime i saw dem, thy likes jokes n plyfuying while at outsid on free tme or sum gathring wth their frn...even thou da topic dt thy say was nt da topic dt i cn tlk bout oso bt evrytime whn i c dem i really cn put down my bad mood








bt da anthr sad thing was whn i rch hme n i on my fb da 1st thing i saw was da guy is alrdy in a relationship....i oso know dat im nt his taste....nt his cup of tea


aiks~wt 2 do???i kant do anything





WAT A SHIT DAY N A HEPI DAY 4 ME 2....


FAINT

2day ws my HEPI N SAD DAY

WTF...!!!! hw cum he will say like dat 2 me....ysterday was tlking gud 2 me...2DAY SAY HE DUNO HU IS ME N SCLD ME RUDELY MAJII....

XCUSE ME..IM DA 1 HU SAY BREAK N NT U OK~PLZ DUN SAY WTH PPL DAT U R THE 1 HU SAY BREAK DUN AIAI LA AIYO

+ WHN I SAY IT 2 MY KOR..HE DUN WAN HLP ME I ALRDY ANGAP HES MY REAL KOR LIKE DAT...WHN GT PPL BULLYNG ME MANKING MY NAME STNK OUTSIDE...HE DWN HLP ME..HE STILL SAY IM HIS SIS N DA GUY IS HIS FRN HE WN ME HW???

WT DOES HE MEAN????IZIT HIS FREN R MORE IMPORTNT??

I WAS QUITE DISAPOINTED WTH HIM haiz......



DUN SAY BOUT DA ANGRY THING LE...SAY BEK DA HEPI THNG





LTR I M GOIN CINEMA WTH MYY AUNT HER N FRN THY`R WAN JING JIE SINDY JIE JIE KENNY ROGER KORKOR HAHA AH YAO == N DUNO STILL GT HU WE HERE GOT 8 PPL GO WEEEE...... WE`RE GOIN 2 WTCH DA 72 TAK TAU APA AD...HEHE

I WAS VRY ENJOY GOIN OUT WTH THM...CZ THY GV ME SOME CAN RELAXING FEEL ^^

HAHA...PENN OFF HERE IM GOIN 2 CINEMA DY LU....CONTINUE MY NEXT BLOGG WHN IM BEK FRM CINEMA ^^

^^

since i`ve been 2 kl i started 2 love my kl life..every mrning wke up den prepare den straightly go 2 shop den wrk wrk wrk n wrk...whn bek hme every1 are tired we nid 2 rush just like dis everyday..yea i damn love it dats da life dat i wan



hurmm on 25th i will have 2 bek t.i a month 2 take my car lesen n do some drwing 4 my skul registration on april....say till bek t,i i really nt willing 2 go bek...if can i dwn go bek thr 4ever

t.i was a plc dat had gave me alot of bad memory frm my frn...although my frn r less bt not all of dem r gud....gud oso my di oly dat 1 i oso nt sure wther she is gud wth me or nt bt i trust she wont like my other frn

all my frn nt lier jau like 2 cheat me ad...thy knw sendiri la wht had thy done 2 me

DUH.....T.I PPL wt a RUBBISH wth ppl dat r no manners no moral educating bt nt all of dem la.. who i mean is jux certain of da ppl

nowadays even best frn oso kenot trust thy will chut mai ppl oso



aiks....single life r nt gud 2 live wth..everyday hving boring day wthout sum1 bsid

ppl dt im nt interested thy interested wth me...ppl dat i interested wth...thy nt interested wth me...wat a hard thing da guy was younger den me 1 year

bt howoso i will diam diam geh wait n wait n wait....if i kant gt da chnce hpe i wont go n like bek those TB...its so pity 4 me since im nt TB`s taste i`ve tried it b4..dat tb was in a relationship n was very gud wth her gf....i call da tb s dinasour cz da speed she eating was very fast haha shes da 1 i gt hlp frm 2 ftch me bek frm skul everytime whn im nt in gud relation wth my famly members...bcz of her kndness n her plyful character i have fallin love wth her...i everyday will fnd her by msg jz duno y gt 1 time she look like nt very wan 2 msg wth me n always say kant ftch me hme n i hv 2 cll my family 2 ftch[even thou i hve 2 been scld by thm] in da lst minute....n gt scld by dem..huh....till 1 day i was realised dat its i nt supose faling love wth her since she ws gud relationshp n so loving her gf n its impossible dat she will hve feeling wth me

i was awake n i ws slowly rub off da feel frm myslf...it was very pity whn falling in love wth sum1 dat we impossible 2gthr wth...bt dinasour is a type of frn dat r nce

haix i jz cn do ntg nw all i cn do nw is jz love dat ppl silencely