I KNW I USELESS

i knw dat im such a type of failed human s ppl calld 'sat pai' in cntnese.....
no matter wt i do i oso wont b able 2 do it da best
no matter in ren yuan
frnship...
s my mum`s daughter
or s ppl`s jie

my dii was cryNG dis two day n wt i hlp was NTG even thou i knw her feeling...i understand her feeling~
BT
i duno hw 2 cmfrt her....
duno suppose say wt 2 cmfrt her
duno supose 2 do wt so dat she will feel bttr...
dats me.. wt oso duno a FAILED human being
bt luckily still gt kenny n lisa cmfrts her

now wt i everyday afrd is i gona have a small operation on my beksite n bout my opening skul soon...
i`m nt dare 2 go n c dctr n have da operation...i kant face it EVEN it just a SMALL operation...
N
skul opening...wt shud iscrd.. it jz a skul dt we gona go thr 4 stdy dats ntg hv 2 afrd wth~
bt wt i tinking iafrd whn i went thr i gt prblm wth having new frn there HVNG COMUNICATION WTH PPL`S THR
even at t.i dis small place i oso having prblm 2 have new frn...
none of dem will have me s their frn
i wonder Y???
till 2day i kant gt da ans 4 myself myb bcz of my bad attitude o wtever i duno
sumtime i jz tinking y sum of da ppl gt alot of time till their schedule full wth their frn`s date...those ppl was so lucky i hope i can have a same situation oso

wt i wana is jz havng lot of frn n just b cum a gud designer in da future
bt...
now im afraid even whn i had 2 walk inta da skul..i tink wt i wish 2 just let it b a dream b jz let it pass away..
wt i dreaming is nvr happen n da ppl dt i like will nvr have any feling wth me...

i admit dat
im USELESS im ah SAT BAI JIE