AT LAST...

dis few day raining heavily....n i was njying da cooling air by da rain ^^
n on last two nite after yumcha wth my kmuii we went longkai wth her kai kai kor on da car we opnd the window...
wth cool wind cool air n da song we hear mede me so relax
n dis had gave me a relaxing mind emm....huh
by the time of it i had tink alot...
n i oso had made alot of decision...
i will 4gt eveythng bout HIM...
n strt my new life wthout thnkng of HIM....
haha ^^
i dun wan b a single lover...dats a stpd thing i ever had...im nt suppose 2 wait sum1 dat smlr den me dat dun have feel wth me
i say 2 myself dat DUN B SO IDIOT
so....at last i had rub him off n jus made his s my frn ^^
n diss....had made my mood less b moody dy hehe
N NOW....i will jz concntrate 2 sum1 dat nice dat gud 2 me n i wont tink othr ppl dy

ACT DO I HV FRN??

my i knw whr all my frn had gone????o i nvr have frn o m i so being hated by ppl?
dis few day i was soo moody i try 2 nt fidn any1...bt den???my ph nvr rang nvr have sum msg frm any 1..
im so dissapointed i knw im a useless ppl...i kant gv ppl any benefit...bt is dat my life????my mum born me out is 4 gvng my frn o ppl BENEFIT....???
oh plsss im nt da benefitter dat i have 2 gv benefit 2 those ppl..
my mum born me out is 4er i havng a life...hvng my own frn....hvng my social n bla bla bla..
bt den???ppl jz take me s their banafitter...whn i dun have wt thy nid wt thy wn o whn i kant gv any benefit 2 ppl....n whn i din fnd dem,,,,
thy will nt evr find me...xcpt 1 of my same age frn...
dis few day i was superb damn moody...is thr any1 knw it????is thr any1 here 2 comfort me???
no!!!
no1 evr knw n no 1 evr cum n do it...
wt thy knw???thy jz knw dat i kant gve dem any benefit anymre n thy wont fnd me n jz let me die...wth moody...oh if lidat im gonna gttng crzy

now me n my kor relationship n da way we communicate bcum wrst day by day...all JZ bcz of my damn shit moody mood if nt im chttng wth him dy
bt my moody made me nt dare 2 chat wth him cz i afrd i will scld him xcdntly

BT
THX GOD DAT 2 DAY I HVE CHAT WTH MY LONG ITME DIN CONTACT DY DE GUAI ZAI DATS ALAN N ALSO MY LUII JUN
2day whn i fnd DEM 2 chat thy was jkng wth me n the way n the mood thy chattng wth me gttng alot better den last time whn i find dem chat
WHN I SAW THEIR MOOD SO GUD XPECIALLY MY ZAII...
FRM DA TIME I STOP CNTCT WTH DEM N I CNTINUE FND HER 4ER SUMTIME...2DAY DA 1ST TIME I C HER MOOD SO GUD...
whn i c her mood is gttng bttr den last time nt s moody s stress like last time i was so heppi...
N OSO WAWA DATS MYGUD FRN FRM WHN I WAS STILL VRY SMALL TILL NW...HAHA
SHE OSO CHAT N JKE N OSO HEAR MY XIN SHI...SHE WAS ALSO DA TYPE OF PLYFL PPL LA

MY MOOD WILL GT BTTR BY 2 DAY ALL WANA THX MY ZAII,LUI N my GUD FRN WAWA OH...
THX U GUYS...BT DEN I HOPE DIS SITUATION CAN B KEEP ON TILL 4EVR
K LA OFF BY HERE....IT1S VRY LTE DY
NITEX ALL

IF I GT THE CHANCE,I WILL WAIT

a few day din on9 din write blog bt i still duno dat im gonna hv 2 say wt here
my mind was blank n im blurred
we have din msg 4er a few day n in dis few day i tryng 2 4gt bout him
cz da 1 he love is oly his gf he wont b`longs 2 me theres no use n its jux wsting my time wtng him
bt den iknat do it i jux kant 4gt him jux kant do it
I KANT DO IT....!!!
bt den
no matter i`hve gt da chnce o nt...
no matter i hve 2 wait how long
no matter how far i hav 2 go
if i gt da chnce...i will still wait till i gt the chance

HEPI HEEPI^^

YSTDAY he had slpt so din even reply me...
n 2day i jz like usually wait 4er his msg no matter wt i doin....
n den whn i went out 2 giant wit my dii dats gretchen kaka sdnly i tke my ph n c he say sory 2 me cz ystday he slpt dy so din reply me..keke
dat time my moody mood man man de gave giant dat 2 digi salesperson cured whn thy startd plyng n jking wth us whle dii went 2 buy headset frm dem+ i gt charlies msg my mood terus bcum super gud leh
haha
altgh hes msg is nt wt msg n many msg like [u at my heart so important u noe] i knw dis word is jus lying n its impossible im important 4 him whs important 2 him is jz his gf n whn i dun trustd him he jz say me so stuborn haha

altgh i knw wt he say like miss me n cn c me evrydy la im importnt 4 him oso n bla bla bla so on is nt da truth...n i wont trust it la bt den im so hepi whn i saw it ^^

1st i wana thx my dii GRETCHEN cz brng me out if not i oso wont gt chnce tlk 2 da two salesperson kaka
2nd i wana thx giant`s digi da 2 superrbb nice salesperson 4 cherrng my mood up hehe
thx thx
LET ME INTRO DEM LA....BT I TAK TAU WTS THEIR NAME BOR NVMNVM I WILL GT THEIR NAME NXT TIME I GO THR HAHA
THY R DA GIANT`S DIGI STALL ON DA 1ST FLOOR N ON DA RGHT HAND SIDE FRM DA DOOR FRM MCD N ON DA LFT HND SIDE WHN U IN FRM DA PARKING ENTRNCE THE
GT TIME GO BONG CHAN DEM BA XD
N N LASTLYY
THX 2 DII N U TWO SALESPERSON CHEER MY MOOD BEK MUUUAHHHXXX =X

i NID MEDIC AHHH

jz nw blgng cz i dunno type his name so i go n msg him n ask him他
aftr he reply me da msg dt he reply also jz [enen] i tght 2day he will msg wth me jz like dat day bt he din
whn i say dt dwn dstrb him dy ask him 2 go n do hid thng he oso jz en
dat time my heart was vry.... vry pain
i say dy dat day whn he msg me is jz wana ply me bt iu was so stpd thnk alot
i oso knw dat im so stpd go n like sum1 dat will nvr like me nvr gt interestd wth me
bt i jz kant cntrl myself
evnthou i knw he wont like me bt i still wana so like him
n my feel deepeer day by day
bt wt cn i do????
i kant gt da ans 4 it
whn i thnk bek hw cum i will fall in love wth him
myb cz of his nce chrctr
everytme whn i tink dat he dun love me i wont gt da chnce my eye will b wet
my feel too deep wth hm dy...
its too late for me 2 keep it bek

my heart ws so pain
is thr any medic 2 cure it
HU CAN HLP ME

好不明白

为什么我想要参的。。。好想把他们做我的好朋友的
总是都不参我不理我而且当我没存在
难道我就根本跟人类没人缘？？？
还是我根本没有他们所参的条件？？？没他们那么有钱没他们那么美身材也跟他们没得来所以他们看不起我？？
还是我的人根本就是令人讨人厌？？
我想参的人好多好多 但是我和他们不熟没机会去靠近他们一些就丢下了我 也许他们是有了他们要的朋友或他们自己的好朋友
之前
当星儿带常我出时 她就是最好的那个 我和我家人吵架时我告诉她她会安慰我那时要不是有他在我看我现在已经没机会在这里写blog了
当我第一次看到他时我就好想做她其中一个好友
当她带我出时我好高兴我以为我有机会当她其中一个朋友
结果不是。。。我根本没那个机会是
我根本不会有那个机会
对我来说能找到自己的好朋友是比仍和东西最重要的
我真的好想有些稳定的朋友

无论在友情或爱情我都是失败的
当我朋友伤心有心事时虽然我很明白很了解他们的心情但是我根本没本事安慰也没有本事帮他们
在爱情上我好没用竟然会爱上一个有女朋友的也没可能会喜欢上我的一个男生
昨天有个朋友跟我开玩笑他叫我去抢我又想过但是我自己是什么koli...我自己知道
我根本不可能会赢...我根本不会得到琦霖的心我不可能是他喜欢哪种的女生
我永远都没有得到他爱的那种命

我好不明白自己的命为什么都是充满失败充满伤心的记忆
也许是我没用没胆子是个失败者吧

loSE MY PATIENT

2DAY im so missed him...
i kant stand anymore...i was too miss him till my hand was undercntrl n msg him
wat an idiot
i knw he gt gf dy n im nt suppose 2 msg him bt den find the 1 we like it`s nt a mistake...
we gt the hak 2 love n find sum1 eventhou thy dosent blng`s o will nvr blng`s 2 us...
dis is my 1st time i will automatically find sum1 dat i like n dosent blong 2 me

whn i tink bek y i wan go n sms him....wat a shame

kenny told me dat tell him my feeling b4 i feel regret nxt time..bt i jz knt do it...its jz coz he`s ppl`s bf..bt den if hes single i oso nt dare 2 do dat
cz im nt a brave ppl

MISSED MISSED MISSED HIM

ystdy charlie had msg me n we had msg 4 awile^^
his 1st msg was i love u....me is kenny
i rememberd his num gt 9010 i agak is charlie plyng n kenny will nvr say ME is kenny
so i replied him dat charlie maii wu liao la...
afta dat we had msg 4awile
i was so suprise dat he wil msg wth me 4awile
i said 2 myslf dat the day dat i hope n 1 of wt i wish has COME TRUE
i was so....hepi bt whn i tink bek he gt gf i say 2 myself...fine dy...hes ppl bf its nt my turn 2 have it
even we jz msg 4awile i alrdy veri hepi n vry satisfied DY

n 2day mrning while i attndng line dance clsSwth my cousin...attend my ART CLAS I TGHT dat 2dAY he will fnd me at da same time s ystday
bt....
he din
n dis mke me more miss him n dis time is super miss him
altgh wt we chat ystday was ntg n jz normal chat bt i wont 4gt bout ystday ^^
i siau dy go n like sum1 dat smlr den me 2 yr n iknw dat it ws imposible dat he will gt fling wth me i still like cntinuously n dt feel deepeer day by day

I KNW I USELESS

i knw dat im such a type of failed human s ppl calld 'sat pai' in cntnese.....
no matter wt i do i oso wont b able 2 do it da best
no matter in ren yuan
frnship...
s my mum`s daughter
or s ppl`s jie

my dii was cryNG dis two day n wt i hlp was NTG even thou i knw her feeling...i understand her feeling~
BT
i duno hw 2 cmfrt her....
duno suppose say wt 2 cmfrt her
duno supose 2 do wt so dat she will feel bttr...
dats me.. wt oso duno a FAILED human being
bt luckily still gt kenny n lisa cmfrts her

now wt i everyday afrd is i gona have a small operation on my beksite n bout my opening skul soon...
i`m nt dare 2 go n c dctr n have da operation...i kant face it EVEN it just a SMALL operation...
N
skul opening...wt shud iscrd.. it jz a skul dt we gona go thr 4 stdy dats ntg hv 2 afrd wth~
bt wt i tinking iafrd whn i went thr i gt prblm wth having new frn there HVNG COMUNICATION WTH PPL`S THR
even at t.i dis small place i oso having prblm 2 have new frn...
none of dem will have me s their frn
i wonder Y???
till 2day i kant gt da ans 4 myself myb bcz of my bad attitude o wtever i duno
sumtime i jz tinking y sum of da ppl gt alot of time till their schedule full wth their frn`s date...those ppl was so lucky i hope i can have a same situation oso

wt i wana is jz havng lot of frn n just b cum a gud designer in da future
bt...
now im afraid even whn i had 2 walk inta da skul..i tink wt i wish 2 just let it b a dream b jz let it pass away..
wt i dreaming is nvr happen n da ppl dt i like will nvr have any feling wth me...

i admit dat
im USELESS im ah SAT BAI JIE

bro`s b`dy 2day

2day was my bro 11th yrs old b`day..

we`re hvng steambOat by our own at house...
SUM NORMAL SEAFOOD APPEAR... LET ME SHOW U

MY BLOVD XD

MEAT MEAT

ASSORTD SEAFOOD MEAT XD
DUNO WT FSHES + CRAB +SLICES OF FISHES ==!!!

LIKE LAP SAP TANG

PRWN

PRWN PRWN..

SO MANY OF DEM I JZ EAT 1 NIA...

TABLE OF DA SETEAMBOAT......

MY BRO`S B`DAY CKE..

DURIAN DURIAN BY SCRT RECIPE

N HERES DA VISEO OF MY BRO N WHILE PREPARING 4 DA STEAMBOAT

all da children here..look like rumah ank yatim here ==

+ my jiu mu 2day doin tatoo [AT HOME] duno y she dwn so it at shop wan da sifu cum whn we goin c she says 2 my jiu jiu [ah di ah...so many ppl at here c..i very scare geh]

if she reli dwn gv ppl c jau go da shop do la sana no ppl will watch maii SHOW SHOW AT HERE LA...SHE THHT LIKE DAT SHHE VRY BANGA..

1DAY I DO MORE GENG GEH CUM BEK FRM KL..PUIK!!

PLS DUN BLAME ME SCLDNG PPL LIKE DT

PAISEH

EVRY MRNING

EVERY MORNING whn im goin 2 opn my eye i was always tght dat [HEY AT LAST YSTDAY I cN B A FRN of HIM] bt once i had opned my eye oly i knw dat was oly wt i think n dat ws only a dream dat wt i ws always day dreaming at..

haix....

KOR I HATE U!!!!

WHN U R LONELY....SINGLE...
U JAU KNOW CUM N FIND ME..DAY U VERY SEK ME DIS AH MUI LA...PALING SEK GEH IS ME DIS AH MUI OSO LA....

LST TIME WHN BEK FRM SNGPRE 3 DAYS U EVRYDAY OSO CUM FND N BRNG ME OUT
WHN CNY JAU SAY WN FIND ME GOU OUT...
MANA TAU DIN FND ME N WHN I KNW U AT MCD N ANI NGAM I OSO AT THR I TGHT WN GO N FIND U DIS KOR..JIE GUO LEH???U MACAM NOT VERY WAN TALK 2 ME...WHN C DOU UR FEN JAU TERUS LARI GO FIND HIM..SIAM AD OSO DIN TELL ME LANGSUNG 4GT JOR ME...ON DA LST DAY U AT T.I LO N ALRDY NO FRN GV U FIND LO OLY U TAU CUM FIND ME...\WAT U MEAN???

MUII???

DA WORD MUII DAT U SAY IT OUT FRM UR MOUTH IS OLY A ZHAM XI GEH MUII....IS JUST 4 REPLACING UR BORING N FREE DOU TINK MM DOU CAN DO WAT GEH SCHEDULE!!!!

WHN I WS BEING BULLYNG BY UR [FRN]
I NID N I WAN UR HELP..
WAT U SAY 2 ME???
[U IS MY MUI . N HE IS MY FREN U WAN I DO WAT?]
DIS WORD U OSO CAN SAY IT OUT MEANS UR FRN IS MRE IMPORTANT N U SUO CALL GEH AH MUII U CAN LOST HER N SHE`S NT IMPORATNT 4U MA..
WHN I WAS BEING BULLY BY UR FRN U OSO DANG NTG

N NOW!!!!
U GT U SUKA GEH PPL...
U JAU DUNO FIND ME..HER PH BO CREDIT U CALL ME HELP U TOPUP 4 HER!!!! WHN I TELL U DAT MY PH NO CRDT WAT U SAY??!!!!U JUST O...SHE KENAL U HOW LONG???IM UR MUII 4 HOW LONG AD HAR!!!!HER PH BO CRDT NIA U OSO TAU FND PPL HLP U TOPUP 4 HER!!!!NVM GEH...I WILL HLP 2 4 DA 1ST TIME I WILL NEVER DO IT 4 DA 2ND TIME
IM NOT DAT TYPE OF DAN CHUN PPL ANI BODOH GV U LEI YONG
JZ NOW WHN I MC U U GENG YIN ASK ME APA HAL
WA...LAST TIME WHN U R ALONE U JAU VRY GUD GEH REPLY ME LA
NOW???
U ASK ME APASAI..
I REPLY U WTH THE WORD I SCLD U U OSO DIN REPLY
PLS LA SHE`S UR GUD BROO GEH GF DUN ANI SILLY SO N TREAT HER ANI GUD LA,,,

I RELLY DISAPOINTED...
b4 dis i tink dat u use nvm..myb bo next time
BT NOW!!! I ALRDY C THRU U DIS PPL....IM NT UR MUII..!!!!
DUN CALL ME MUII AD...I WILL NT CONTCT U!!!WONT FND U!!!WONT TRUST U!!!N WONT FAN U AD!!!
MY RELLY GEH AH KOR WONT TAKE ME S A THING 2 REPLACE HIS FREE N DAMN SUPER KOSONG GEH SCHDULE
IM NT TOYS 4 DAT!!!
U GO FIND UR BELOVED GAL N UR BEST FREN BA
SORRY 4 WT HAVE WRITTEN BT WT I SAY IS JUST DA TRUTH N WAT I HAVE SAID HERE I WILL PROVE N DO IT
88 NG POH SOON

I WISH....

I WISH I CN C U AGN

I WISH DAT IM ALRDY UR FRNN

I WISH I CN NEARER 2 U

I WISH IM CNTCTNG WTH U EVERYDAY

I WISH IM SMSNG WTH U NOW

I WISH IM OUTNG WTH U NOW

I WISH 2WASH ALL THE REGRET

I WISH 2 WASH I ALL AWY THE PAIN

I WISH 2 WASH ALL THE SORROW..

BT I`M FAILED 2 DO IT..

CZ I MISS U BADLY!!!!!!

I WISH DAT I`M URS

[I WISH DAT THE 1 U LOVE IS ME]

[[I [LOVE U]..CAN U FEEL IT..!!!]]

MY ANTHR DAY....

2day was da anthr day...

2day getting worst...

i kant stop tnkng bout HIM

NO MATER IM EATING....

[MY NASI PAPRIK S MY SUPPER]

FAT SEI DY ><

WHN IM MSN

EVEN MSN WTH MY DII OSO

IM WAS WRITING MY BLOG

BLOG DT I WILL DO almst evryday

WHN I WAS RDING MY UNDNG TILL LOKE LIKE A DEAD PPL

RDING MY UNDNG..PREPRE 4 2MR UNDANG PRCTCE

WHN IM GOIN 2 BATH

my home bathroom door

No matter wt im doin i oso will thinking of bout himm

thinking dat hope i cn meet hin agn someday...

thinking bekk wth him geh memory wile we`r on da cruise

alott..

N CZ OF THINKING HIM

I WAS LOST....

I DUNO ACT HU M I NOW...

MMMMMMMISSS DA CRUISE DAY

HAIX...WHN ON DA CRUISE START JOINING DEM...I FEEL CMFRTBLE....
n now afta bek frm cruise all i miss is da day...da memory n HIM....]
i duno wt happen till i cn gt da feel..hes smaler den me 2 years i knw was nt suppose 2 have those feel

BT.......

da feel cum automatically its not i wan it
N now i everyday was very san fu U KNOW WT I MEAN????

EVERYDAY SUFFERING WTH

LIKING SUM1 DAT SMALER DEN ME 2 YEAR.....

LIKING SUM1 DAT IMPOSSIBLE WTH ME...

LIKING SUM1 DAT GT GF DY



I KANT SCREAM IT OUT

I KANT SAY IT OUT

I KANT DO ANYTHING DAT I WISH 2 DO

I KANT RELEASE IT OUT

I KANT GO DA CHNCE 2 EVEN 2 BE A FRN OF HIM


im getting worst day by day i duno y i will start liking SUM1 DAT SMALER DEN ME....